Thursday, July 9, 2015

Big Changes

Where do I even begin?

Over the last few months I have been going through something that has changed me and will continue to change me. But the change that is going on in my life right now is for the absolute best. 

It took me a really long time to realize this, but I was very unhappy with my marriage. And for a while. I didn't like how it made me feel. I didn't like that I felt like I was alone. I didn't like that I felt like I didn't have a Husband and that what I really had was a roommate. And it didn't seem to matter how many times I brought  up some of the things that were bothering me, he just didn't seem to care that I was feeling like this. 

After a lot of soul searching, thinking and stressing and a zillion other feelings on my part and not knowing what else to do, I made a decision and I haven't looked back since. I decided that getting a divorce and not being together anymore was the best thing for me.

Was this decision easy? Not by any means. Am I being selfish because I only considered my feelings? Absolutely. But guess what? I need to to be selfish when it comes to me and my happiness. I need to be happy. Period. And for once in my life I am actually putting myself before everyone else and doing something for me. 

I can't even begin to tell you how many people want to make me feel bad for the decision that I have made. But guess what? I don't want to feel bad. And I don't feel bad. Why should I feel bad for doing what is best for me? Why should I feel bad for trying to make myself happy? Simple answer. I shouldn't feel bad. And I don't want to feel bad. That's why I made the decision that I did.

A lot has happened over the last few months but I can without a doubt say that I do not regret my decision at all. I am in such an amazing place that I know that it was what I needed to do for me. Don't get me wrong it has definitely been an emotional and stressful couple of months, but it is all part of the process.

And needless to say there are going to be some changes happening to this blog in the near future. A name change is first on the list. But I hope you stick around and continue following along on this new journey that I have embarked on.



  1. I am so proud that you put YOU first. When no one else is willing to, it's up to you. I'm sure in a perfect world you never would have to deal with any of this, and I'm sure this is the last thing you wanted in your life. Don't let anyone make you feel bad. Just do what you need to be happy!

  2. Everything K said. WOW. It's amazing how many people want to speculate and point fingers but you are the person living in your marriage. No one else knows what it was like behind closed doors except the two of you. You are too young to settle for being married to someone where you're best friends but there isn't any passion, especially if you're being unheard. I know you probably never expected this would happen (who does?!) and it's not a decision you made lightly by any means. Just know you always have support and you 100% deserve to be happy! Xoxo

  3. wow Megan! I'm sorry you have had a rough couple of months, but I'm very happy that you are doing what you need to do and that you are moving forward confident in your decision. You will come out this, better and stronger, I wish you the best!


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