Wednesday, July 27, 2016


This past week has been up and down. I finally got on the scale yesterday morning for the first time since the end of June. To be real, I have been so scared to step on that scale. And honestly, I think that is why it showed what it did yesterday morning. 174.8. Almost 20 lbs up from my lowest weight of 155. Cue me having a minor meltdown/panic attack/ freak out yesterday morning. Tears and all. 

It wasn't pretty. But it was a wake up call and a slap in the face all at the same time. I am the only person that is responsible for me putting weight back on. No one else. Just me. So I need to be responsible for getting it back off too. 

Although I have been struggling to stay motivated, I know that I can do it because I did it once before. I need to buckle down and get serious. Serious about what I am fueling my body with. And serious about my workouts. That is all there is to it. 

I can do this! And I will! 


Monday, July 25, 2016

Blog Ideas

Hello Blog World! Happy Monday! 

I have really been wanting to blog more and more lately. Small problem though. I sit down to blog and I can not come up with anything to write about. Not a single thing. Writers block I guess is what you would call that. Whatever the name for it, it is frustrating. 

I am here to ask for some help. What do you guys do to get ideas for your blog? I want to know how you guys get so creative with posts and what to talk about. Do they just come to you in the middle of the night or day? Do you use a website that gives you some ideas? Do you use a planner and plan every blog post out? Or do you just write down a general idea? 

I really want to keep up with blogging. It is something I really enjoy and is very therapeutic at times for me. Even though I don't think I have a lot of readers, which shouldn't matter. If I am happy doing it, then that is enough for me. But having some awesome post ideas might just help keep me going. 

So, how do you get your creative juices flowing? Teach me your ways! 


Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Time to Be Real

It's time for me to be real. With myself more than anyone. I worked so hard for months to lose all of the weight I wanted to. And I accomplished that. And I am still really proud of that fact. But it is time for me to admit to myself and everyone else that I have been struggling lately. 

I have gained some of that weight back. Not a ton. But probably about 15 lbs. Now I know that some of you are thinking that 15 lbs isn't really that bad. But for me, it is enough to make me feel uncomfortable with myself again that I know that I need to step up and do something. And it scares me. I worked so hard to get to where I was. And I can't go back to that person. I won't go back to that person I was before. That person was miserable and hated how she looked and felt. 

That is hopefully where this blog comes in. I need a way to hold myself accountable again. I need something that I can come to on a daily or weekly basis to put it all out there. My struggles, my triumphs, all of it. If I don't get this under control now, I feel like I may end up exactly back where I started. And that is not an option in my book. 

I can say that I have kept up with some of the good habits that I fell into during my journey. I am still working out. I haven't been working out as hard though.That right there is an area for improvement. I need to up the intensity of my workouts again. I need to make sure that I am hitting my calorie burn every day. No more days of not hitting or even being close. I need to get off my ass and make it happen. 

One area of my workouts that I have been struggling with is that I have had a hard time finding something to fill that void for the days that I did Zumba. It took me a while, but I have a new workout love, and that love is TRX. If you aren't sure what it is, it is essentially suspension training. All body weight type exercises. It is amazing! There is a TRX class at my gym on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays and I am addicted. And it just so happens that it is filling that same time slot and void that was so vacant after I quit teaching Zumba. Bonus! 

My biggest struggle has been my eating. I do great some days, and then horrible the next. I need to get back to eating clean and loving it. There for about a year, I didn't crave the junk. I found healthy alternatives to things that I used to eat all the time. And somehow over the last year, I have kind of gone away from that a bit. I need to quit making excuses and just do it. So starting today, no more sugary coffees (I will miss you Dutch Bros), no more eating out at junk places. No more junk food. No more ice cream and chocolate. It all has to go. Will I allow myself to cheat every now and then? Absolutely. I have to. Or I will eventually go insane. But a cheat meal needs to quit turning into a cheat day(s) or cheat weeks and months. 

I'm determined and focused to get this weight back off. I know that I can do it. I have done it before and I will do it again. I want to be leaner and have more muscle definition again. I want to be the healthiest version of me. And guess what? I will. Today is a new day. And it is always a great day to get better!